What is truly successful?

As I sit here in another new place in life, munching on pumpkin pie oatmeal (YUM) - the Hippies sure do know how to cook some good wholesome food - I ponder. Ok, what's new?!

What does success mean?

Ever since I got this job at Kona Krafts, I have noticed a paradigm shift in the way I view teamwork, life, and humans.

First of all, part of being a team is to give some of yourself to the purpose of the team because a team is so much better than the effort (or glory for some people) of one person. Just like its easier to carry a heavy table with more people, its also more beautiful to hear a band over one person. Maybe success is not whether you produce, but rather did you effectively work together towards producing at some point...

Second, life is driven by money. I just fucking hate that! Maybe success is not about making money but rather about helping and giving back. Or maybe life is about pushing yourself to confrotn every fear you have at every moment, no matter how crazy. Or to push yourself to achieve more and handle more stress at once. I mean, greed and money have no limit which is why we created labor laws because people do.

This brings me to my last point. I have found working in Human Services (or aka "trying to run on a river...with brick shoes...on a time schedule") that trying to influence/help/control humans seems impossible. With humans with disabilities (and I have found lately even humans without disabilities), success is very very small and inconsistent.

I used to be such an idealist, which I am thinking more and more to mean "perfectionist." And even though this universe is perfect to me...nature is perfect to me...love is perfect to me...but teamwork, life, and humans are not. I don't know why...Im going to go ponder this. Oh, how I love to ponder.